What is worse than being in a third world country , reeking with religious extremism, cultural cult of patriarchy, heteronormative. Being queer and being forced to get married is the worst fate . The fact that I just don't want to get married but every day I am brainwashed and told that all my friends are getting married and I would be lonely make me think , marraige is not the cure to loneliness , in fact it will exacerbate and stifle my soul .
I am unable to breathe properly " the sentence that I think about too often and write too often .
The stress has literally paralyzed me . The fact that I should be ashamed of who I love is the worst fate and torture anyone has to go through .
IF IT WAS IN MY CONTROL ON WHICH GENDER TO LOVE , I WOULD CHOOSE BEING STRAIGHT OVER ANYTHING.
